A book.. but how do I know

We were born into a world without any definition of what it is all about. We could surmise many things but realistically they would just be guesses of what this whole place is about. We could launch off in a long description of what life is suppose to be about and what way would should go. However, in the end it is hard to assume really what it is all about. Over and over like a long loop there would be talk but really no hard definition of this existence. With that in mind you could argue if there is unknowns then why do we seek things that seem pointless. Are we carrying on an existence that we believe is as pointless as our existence.

Material accumulation, wealth, pride, esteem.. On and on.. We could question all these things but in the end be confused and maybe be right back to believing in the very things we argue against. Such a confusing existence because it is one that doesn't allow us to deviate from things that seem wrong. It is like a viscous cycle one in which we discover the faults but the faults keep us trapped into beliving that is what reality is about. Maybe the pointless desire for things that are material are driving us to be totally locked into this reality.

I have thought long and hard about is it possible are mind can escape this reality? Is it possible this constant conditioning of desiring things that make us materially happy (physically) we are becoming locked into a cycle of thinking. Is it possible that are minds are in a repetitive loop. The loop we tell others is reality and if you venture outside the loop you are considered abnormal, psychotic, schizophrenic, nutty, wakco? Is it possible that people tell us we are unhealthy if we think outside the normal are wrong? Is it possible we are clouding others minds with only this reality and if they venture to discover a perception or realm that is outside of this one we brand them insane for not subscribing to this perfect reality.

Sometimes I think maybe insanity involves participating in a reality that is brutal, competitive and shallow at the least. You can see psychologist lining up telling people make sure you keep taking your "happy" reality pills to keep you happy in a reality that offers little if any happiness. It is as almost if it is the Matrix movie where neo is offered the two pills and the one pill to leave the only thing he has known. However, our reality offers peoples pills to stay within what they know and remain in this reality. I believe many doctors feel that their pills help people but in reality possibly some people they are clouding with their idea of perfect perception. No one can be pretentious enough to hold a sign up and say "I have figured out what reality you need to perceive - now take this pill and feel better to my perception." A doctor in so many ways one time told me to never be too truthful because my truths would be looked upon badly. I guess that is the reality we all have grown up to love.. distrust, lies, distortion and confusion.. Maybe we need to learn to sync up with one another and understand what is going on in each of our heads without fear of others laughing..